July 14, 2010

A long time has passed since I lasted posted on this blog. My life has been totally changed by tremendous upheavals.

If events such as have occurred in my life in the past 2 years occur under the surface of the earth, they are called earthquakes. Earthquakes are measured for intensity by the Richter Scale. If there were a similar scale to measure the emotional upheaval various events and experiences cause in the human emotional psyche, at least 4 events in my life over the past 2 years would measure high on the scale:

1. Jon's Battle and Survival of H1N1 Swine Flu
2. The Elimination of Position as Regional Sales Manager
3. Finding I Needed To Have Brain Surgery
4. The Wondrous Birth and Growth of Reagan Kirk

Through all of the events of the past 2 years, I have been amazed at how my faith in the goodness and wonder of God has soared and grown to points I would never have dreamed possible. After all the years of doubt, discouragement, anger and disappointment, to see the Creator of the Universe reveal to me why He has done the things He has done to me and for me is beyond any ability I have to comprehend.

While I have no idea what the future holds, and though I know I'm on the 'back-end' of my life simply due to my age, I am more at peace than I have ever been in my life. I am content the Lord has shown me He had been preparing me even in the midst of all my fighting Him to care for me and love me and provide for me the deepest and greatest longings of my heart.

Despite the fact I do not deserve even a small amount of the grace He has bestowed, I am grateful; and I hope I will never doubt His majesty and wonder again.